Random Stuff

I'm in snowy Cleveland tonight. It's actually kinda nice to be back traveling again. I'll be here until Wednesday, and then who knows when I'll be back after that. Work is a little slow right now, but hopefully things will pick up soon.
I spent the evening with Mamaw yesterday. I knew I wouldn't get to see her for a few days, so I wanted to spend as much time as possible with her. She seemed in better spirits. I talked to my mom after my flight landed to check on how Mamaw was doing today and if mom had talked to the doctor. Mamaw is severely malnourished. Based on some scale, he said that 3.2 is severely malnourished and Mamaw's is a 2.0. He said that if she pulls through this, she will have a very long road of recovery ahead of her. We're doing our best to get her to eat, but only wants to eat sweet stuff or only a few bites of this or that and then she says she's full. I honestly don't know if she's going to get better this time or not. God may take her home to be with Him. Only He knows when her time will come. All that I can do is turn her over to Him and pray that she does not suffer whether she gets better or she goes home to be with her Lord. If you think about it, when you say your prayers, please lift up one for my Mamaw.
I would also like to ask for your prayers as well. Honestly, this couldn't come at a worse time, but I feel very strongly that God has called me to do this and I am going to be obedient. I really feel that God is calling me to be a foster parent. This all came about after having coffee with my pastor. I have always felt that my calling in life had something to do with children. I have just had it in my head that I was supposed to have children or maybe adopt children. Well... at 36, it was becoming plain to me that God didn't want me to have biological children, which is fine by me, I'm all for adoption. But my pastor asked me if I'd ever thought about being a foster parent. I honestly never had. He mentioned that with Tiffany and Jasmin living with me, and me helping out with Jasmin as much as I have. Maybe I'd make a good foster parent. I decided I would really have to think and pray about that. Well I did. And it was as though a light bulb finally went on... This is what He wants me to do. I have actually helped 3 friends raise their children, one of them was sick for several months after her daughter was born, so her daughter lived with me until she was able to care for her again. Another was going through marital problems, and I would watch her son a lot for her while she tried to get things straightened out at home and then helping with Jasmin. So, I feel like God has been grooming me to be a foster parent for a while now and I didn't even know it! I know that it will all work out. The timing, and everything else will fall into place. I have a home visit from DHS scheduled for March 17th. They will come and do a home inspection and let me know if there is anything house wise that I need to do. They will also give me "the big application" to fill out that will be sent to Little Rock. It will be put into the database and it will be what will match a potential foster child with me. I really liked what they had to say when I went to the initial inquiry meeting. They don't find matches for their foster parents. They find matching foster parents for their kids.
Well... there you have it. A lot going on right now, but nothing too tough for God. I will keep you posted on everything.

Thanks for all of the prayers for my grandma. I really appreciate them!

Mamaw

Well Mamaw had her surgery and it has been all downhill from there. She hasn't been able to walk on her own since her surgery. Her doctor admitted her to the Rehab facility here in town. She has been there since a week after her surgery. It's so hard seeing her there. They have a machine that they use to help her stand and try to walk again. Monday, she passed out as they were standing her up. The next day, she did it again and they said that her blood pressure was 112/27! Once they sat her down it started to come back up again. The doctor decided to send her to the ER for some tests. So far all they've found is that she was dehydrated and her kidney's were having poor output, probably from the dehydration. So they admitted her and are still doing some testing. They are still trying to figure out why she went into surgery able to walk and function on her own and came out of surgery, not able to take care of herself. She had an MRI today, so hopefully we will know something soon. It's just very hard to watch her go through this. I've known that her health was deteriorating for some time, but I wasn't quite expecting this. I guess you never do. Please pray for my Mamaw and her doctors. That they will find out what is going on and will be able to treat it.

I have a lot more that I need to talk about, but the battery on my laptop is drained, so I will save it for another post. I'll just leave you with this... I finally know what God wants me to do with my life! I'm excited about it and I will fill you in as it things progress.

Tanya